A Quote to Inspire

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

-Marianne Williamson




Friday, October 15, 2010

Never a Dull Moment Now Huh!

So, I went with my cousin Tala to a party. *Rolls eyes* All part of this "enjoying my teen years" thing my family is pushing on me.

So, I went to the party and ran into who else but Alison Mali. Now, this girl and I have never held a conversation ever and all of a sudden she was so into trying to find out where I got my blouse from. Or who didmy hair, and the funniest thing, did Denille come with me? That was the point of her asking all these questions mind you. I read every thought she had flowing from her little mind and I can say for a pretty girl her mind is so ugly. I try not to read other people’s minds because I leave their thoughts to them but it was just something about her that told me to read her while she yammered on. As she smiled and complimented me she was wondering what Denille saw in me that was so beautiful. She wanted to know how I got the Dior blouse that was not to hit the U.S. till Winter. Or the Jimmy Choo’s that she had tried to get but they had only made a limited number of. I had to tell my mom thanks for the clothes. She laughed and just nodded. Finally happy I was wearing the clothes she had purchased.


What got to me was when I opened my mind to Alison I caught everyone else’s thoughts too. Strangely I caught a voice that was not familiar. It spoke as if they just out of reach. Not sure of where they were because the place was so packed but I knew he was there. It’s the same vibe I get from my shadow. My vision strengthened, my hearing of actually voices heightened and my sense of smell caught every horrid perfume and cologne in the place. Not to mention some rancid BO from a few. All of these things become more intense when my shadow is close. But it won’t pull me to them. That’s what gets me mad, I can sense them but I can’t put my finger on who they are. There’s no scent at all.

Other than that I had a good time and went to The Grill afterwards where Denille and Ashton met us. They are such clowns. Ash running around the place with straws up his nose and Tala ducking so the others wouldn’t see her. But then he goes, puts money into the music match machine and starts to dance to Rick James “Super Freak”! LOL…And he was calling out Tala’s name saying she was a super freak! I laughed so hard I had tears and a stomach cramp. Picture a white boy dancing a singing off-key! It was hilarious even though Ash is not bad on the eyes he was cute and funny! Tala is crazy, she has some of her mother’s personality traits whether she admits them or not. And Aunt Isa is someone no one wants to be. Denille just laughed but he seemed a bit uneasy. I also saw how alert he was the entire time. Like he was waiting for something to happen.

Anduele is not sure of the shadow theory. She thinks it’s just me overdoing it but I’ve been doing the same things, just now I go out, nothing strenuous. I plan to look further into what I am now. There is something that Anduele is hiding I can feel it and she’s great at blocking her thoughts so reading her would never work.

Well , I have to go to the store for my mom. Tonight is family game night which means a large buffet and movies. I heard that Camille, Denille’s mom, will be coming over also. She should get out because she is so alone, friend-wise. But she and my mom have seem to become quite close. Good, from her thoughts I thought one time I would have to warn Denille somehow that his mom was going to breakdown.

Okay, my mom’s yelling now. LOL…gotta go, but I’ll be back alter on this week.

-Karah

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

My Weekend of Kicks and Giggles. OH, and Injuries.

I told you guys about my chase the other night correct? Well, I tried it again and was almost hit by some idiot on a motorcycle. I think I made a wrong turn on their scent which took me out onto the street and directly in front of a sleek gray and black motorcycle. The scent of the guy smelled familiar but it could have been any of the many people in this town. But me being “Miss Dare Devil” I twisted my leg and had to limp back to the house. My mom was pissed. Uncle Nathaniel almost had a coronary and Anduele only shook her head. I’ve already faced the fact that she’s told my grandfather who emailed me a day later saying he was wondering if I would care to come and see him a little early. It’s just him trying to keep his eye on me. It’s cute but not necessary.


So, the next day I went to school with a slight limp and surprisingly Denille wanted to know every detail of my injury. And I could never tell him the truth so as usual I lied. I just said I slipped while mopping the kitchen for my mom. He didn’t seem persuaded but could only take that as the explanation. I had to play it off for a few more hours that I was hurt because the pain hadn’t last long. Denille seems strange since he returned from visiting his grandfather in Louisiana. He says it’s just being jet lagged but I’m not so sure.

That Saturday night we attended a party given by Ashton. Ash tries to go all out every time he throws one it’s just this time I actually went to one. I allowed Tala to dress me because I didn’t know what to wear to a Miami Theme party. Apparently, naked is the choice of dress because that’s how I felt. So, after she dragged me down the stairs, Denille got me into the car. I had a blast. Ash had so much security that I thought one time the President was there. We had to go through them then show our invites that had to be scanned. Who does all that for a party? ASHTON BARR! LOL…He was a great host. There was food and music and drinks (non-alcoholic). Not to mention an endless supply of eyes on me. I could have done without those. Luckily, Ash placed us in V.I.P. so I had a great view of the entire place.





              Before the Party!










There were too many people! LOL










And even with all the eyes on me I felt my shadow watching. Whoever they were they made sure to stay clear of me. I never caught their scent but knew they were there. Funny, the vibe I’m picking up does not seem dangerous. Nothing threatening at all but still all the same they are hiding from me. Watching at a distance. I wonder what they want and why they won’t just do whatever it is there here to do. It’s annoying. But I had fun, and eventually my concentration on the shadow went away. We danced and laughed all night. Tala and I finally made it home around three AM. My mom wasn’t waiting up. Anduele was not in her usual chair painting and the aunts weren’t on high alert waiting for news and every detail of my night. I kicked off my shoes and fell into the bed. CLOTHED!

We I have to go now, I have an exam to study for so until the next time have a good one and I’ll keep you informed on the shadow.

-Karah

Friday, October 1, 2010

The Chase

So, I have been sensing someone shadowing me. I waited last night after I felt them leave and I shifted. Quickly, I jumped from my window in my full wolf form and ran. The earth between my paws was lovely. The braken I kicked-up as I chased whoever it was that was ahead of me was lovely. Still, the scent was foreign. It was familiar, but I could not get a bead on it.

The moon was covered by the smokey clouds. Rain was coming soon and I the trail I had picked up was going to be gone. A growl tore from me and I dug into the cold soft earth even harder. Pushing my body more. I felt a change in my strength. As I grew closer to the shadow my heart changed pace. My sight became more clearer and my hearing amplified ten times more than it was already. My hind legs didn't ache after my shift like they usually did. The wind felt so nice howling in my ears and through my fur. It was heaven but hell trying to keep up.

Unfortunately, I loss the scent and the shadow once I hit the street on th eother side of the forest. There was a hint of exhaust so I suspect a very souped up car or bike. I don't know too many with bikes. None like me either.

Anduele thinks its all in my head but I'm not buying it. There is something that she knows, but she's not budging. And her powers are stronger than mine so I cant invade her thoughts without her giving me access. Ha, that'll never happen. Not in this lifetime.

Well, I just thought I'd keep you guys up to date on my findings of whoever is following me. Got any ideas? I'd love to hear them.

I must go now, Denille, Tala, Ash and I are going to the movies. Nothing like a comedy to make the day perfect. So, until next time.

-Karah