A Quote to Inspire

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

-Marianne Williamson




Wednesday, January 20, 2010

A Night for Play!

At first, I started not to tell about any of my shifting episodes but I realized that you guys need to know something about me. This time it happened after we (Tala, Denille, and Ashton) went out to a game.


The court was packed and we enjoyed the season’s four-on-four tournament. I, personally, didn’t care about anyone there except for the ones I was with but as I sat on the concrete bleachers I heard someone yell. The sounds came from the woods behind the cement block wall of the blacktop. I looked around to see if anyone else had heard but everyone was so into the game that no one seemed on alert. No one but me. I told Denille that I’d be back. I made up a lie about having to use the bathroom and went around to check it out.

I caught the scent of blood and thought that couldn’t be good at all. As soon as I was out of the eye of the drunken school kids I closed my eyes and concentrated on my form. Long fluid legs, strong straightened back, my elongated muzzle. The smooth gray fur along my body that felt just like my own skin. My vision became for vivid and clear and my large paws dug into the bracken earth. The cold, almost black, semi-wet dirt, meshed under my nails and between each. Once I was fully transitioned I stretched my hind legs back, pushing my fronts forward. It was just like waking up from a great sleep. But the thing was, I was just getting started.

I began to sniff the trail of the crimson liquid and noticed that the scent was familiar. Not familiar as in human but familiar as in species familiar. I began to pace myself as I loped and ran through the cool trees. The scent was getting stronger but I could not hear anyone or thing as the source of the seemingly fatal wound. Whoever it was They were around for a while till they decided to make their way out of the woods. Then once I got a lead on the scent and shot through the forest suddenly, the scent was gone. I even turned back and retraced my tracks and they were gone. I made sure that as I trekked back to the edge of the forest line, that I took in that scent so I’d know who they were if they just so happen to come across my path.

Once I got close to the cheers and yells of the Court I shifted back. I had to clean my nails as I walked, those were always dirty when I returned back to my human form. Nothing else. Funny huh? Well, I just thought that I’d share that with you. Who knows I may find out who they really are. And perhaps you too?

Stay tuned
-Karah

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Just Scrambling

I got up too early this morning so that I would not have to rush and ended up tossing clothes everywhere! I think the fact that I had to talk to Denille about his pending interview with Nikki calmed me a little. I admit I was a bit frustrated because she left out a few key points as to why things are going the way they are now. He understood why she did that, because a lot more guys my age will probably read it than that of the older crowd, although I can say that Nikki emailed me and said that whe's gotten good feedback from the interview and our postings. I kinda like that. And because of that I'd like to give notice to a few of them!

To Colette, Dot, Sandra, Helen, Izabella and Ashley! The great friends of Nikki's aka AP on the Twilight Saga website in the "Older Fans (25+) Discussion". They have been following Nikki's work and our blogs and I thank them very much for their support!

Gotta go now! Tala's rushing me to get down stairs!

-Karah

Monday, January 4, 2010

First Morning of Classes: A Text from the Cellie

MSG 1:
Well goodmorning to you all, I am heading off to my Advance Chem class where I know that Denille will be behind me with that look in his eye. I have been picking up a lot of his thoughts lately. At first it was just curiousity and now it's just the fact I loved hearing him in my head. It's funny that our conversations are more intitmate in our heads than out loud. But there's a reason for that, I am simply not ready. We kissed, did I tell you that? Yeah, we kissed a while back and it...it was so real. LOL. Well of course it was real but with him the kiss sparked some kind of euphoric color show. I can’t really explain it, it’s like floating within a box of lightly colored Crayolas and then there’s this tingle all over my skin.

MSG 2:
Don’t laugh you guys, I’m new to this. It was my first kiss and even though I had to stop Denille from nearly killing a fellow ASSmate (because he is an ass) before we kissed, it was a moment that I’d never had before. A milestone in my life. What was more embarrassing was the fact that my mom, Anduele (grandmother), and the Aunts were all up and drinking. Grace even had Sophie up and she was giggling right along with them. They waited for me to return to ask me how my date went. Anduele is very strong adn she can pick up on emotions so I don't recommend you think intimately about anyone or anything if you don't want her to know. They've all figured out their ways to not be read by her but with me she has to ask permission. It's not so much out of courtesy but that she cant access my thoughts unless I give her access. I love that.

MSG 3:
Denille and I are connected. At that point we became more connected that any two people I know. Our minds are so link now that he can sense when I'm sad, happy, angry and other emotions. But I feel that there will be hurdles for us to jump in order to ever get to where we’re supposed to be. He’s been distant lately but still he visits. I think one of our hurdles is getting close and I have braced myself for it.

MSG 4:
Oh, there he is, bright smokey gray eyes, dimples and the most beautiful smile I've ever seen in my life. Gotta go, he's crooking his finger to me. And...yep...I gotta go.

-Karah

Oh, P.S. Nikki's interviewing me somtime this week even though I'm a bit mad with her but stay tuned to that!

Friday, January 1, 2010

Merry New Year!

I won't say much because for one, I'm too tired. I just had to help wrangle in the little ones (The Aunts) and those chicks are completely hammered. I think if you cut them they'd bleed alcohol. LOL. They are pretty much done for, but the joy will be me at 10 in the morn blasting Blueprint 3 from my room, while cleaning, and hearing them whine because it's too loud. Ahhh, payback is oh so sweet. On the real, I enjoyed this new year celebration a lot better. I guess because everyone was happy. Even Aunt Isa, (Tala's mom) was there and she laughed and held conversations with others. I was very happy that Ash brought his mom. She took to my mom very well and I think that they have something planned for the summer. Oh but the highligh of the night was Soph and her Sparkler. ROTFL. It was given to her by some crazies (who shall remain nameless)..LOL.. and she waved around at first like she was told to but then she tried to eat it. You should have seen all of us dive to get it from her. She thought it was soooo funny. And as we all picked ourselves up out of the sand we laughed because in a way it was hilarious.

I really loved that Denille was here to share this with me. I'd never had someone share this type of thing with so it was strange but sweet at the same time. He and his mom Camille were such great people to share a night like this with. I only hope that there are more of those kids of days with them.

Well, I gotta go now. I'm in my bed with one of my favorite movies ready to play. Twilight!...LOL...I just love that Edward, dont you?

-Karah