A Quote to Inspire

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

-Marianne Williamson




Thursday, September 30, 2010

SOMEONE'S WATCHING

So, yesterday I attended a little function that was held by my Uncle Nathaniel. He is an art buyer and collector of all kinds of art. Anyway he held an "Under the Stars" event at our house. A large netted tent was put up and you could see through the light fabric. Luckily it didn't rain. It was lovely but I never care for snobs. There were so many rich people I was almost sick. I'm not big on flaunting my family's money. Neither are they. Well, my Aunt Isodora is, she's always trying to top someone doing something extravagant.
Tala made herself comfortable with some guy that was not Ashton, (smiles) I have no idea what there thing is.


The Dining Area after the viewing.


Denille had something to do so only Camille attended. She seemed to be coming out of her shell since Mr. Townsend left them, taking Denille's older brother Tristan with him. My mom and she were becoming great friends being as that they both were single.
Anyway, I decided to just walk around and view the art alone. After I viewed the last piece, which was a long lost DaVinci. His way of seeing things never ceased to amazed me. The tagged price for the painting was ten point five million. After I saw that on the program I took in a deep breath, laughed and walked away. Ten million? For a painting? I love paintings but seriously?


So, after I gathered my bearings from that I walked along the pool and took a seat on one of the lounge chairs. Once I shooed away a few guys that were just trust fund babies I laid back and closed my eyes. Suddenly, I was sure I heard someone call my name. I opened my eyes but no one was around. Looking out into the darkness I could have sworn someone was there. Watching me. It was the same feeling I have had before. It's getting more strange. And living in my family there should not be anything strange. The voice I heard was a low deep tone. Male and like nothing I've ever heard before. It was just my name that was spoken. Just, Karah. The thing that is scary to me is that I was not afraid. There was no fear in me. There was someone there and that didn't affect me. I felt the urge to shift but not due to fear but curiousity.

I have not told Anduele, all she'll do is worry. But I have decided to start secretly record a few days of activity. I have set up my two cameras with them pointing directly towards the woods past our backyard. The security servillence are great but I feel that I am dealing with something or someone that is aware of those cameras. I hope that they would just show themselves to me because I dont fear them I'm only like them...curious as to why I dont.

I will stay on this.

-Karah

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Glad I'm Still Standing

Hello,

So, Nikki has finally decided to bring me back to the forefront of her brain. Whoop-dee-do. About time some would say. Since she has I guess I am inclined to tell you about what has happened since my absence from you all.

*sighs* Well, let me start by saying I'm am fresh out of ideas as to who is following me. I shifted a few times to try and catch their scent but they've been smart enough to hide it and lead me down dead ends. There is something scary and then again not at the same time. I know they are out there and in time I'll find them.

I know that the shifting thing is such a big deal, and the fact that my grandmother was supposedly the first female to have this gift is an even more big of a deal but damn. Sorry, I try not to swear so much. Not since my mom caught me swearing out my anger a few weeks ago. But honestly if I could change this I would. If I could wish away this gift that I have I would. I'd hand it over to someone that truly would want to live with it. Denille says he understands, don't see how. It's not like he has to live with this. The only person I can talk to is Anduele and she is so proud of how far I've come that I hate to even think about how miserable I am around her. She takes in my emotions and most of the time they are not smile worthy.

But I can say I've had a reason to smile. Denille has helped me to come out of my shell and little. With help from Tala. She calls herself my "cosmetic council". I'm sorry that I'm not into MAC lipgloss and blush and eyeliner and whatever else she tries out on my face. Surprisingly Denille loves it, but then again he said he liked me even when I didn't wear the make-up and the clothes my mom purchased but I never wore. I feel pretty with him and I've never really felt pretty. I really shocked everyone when I wore my swinsuit to the beach. Our yearly family vacation included a few new faces this year and I wore a two piece. It was so funny. My grandfather tried his best to keep me covered. LOL

Oh, let me shar a few pics with you. We went to Saint Tropez and I actually had a blast this time!





I almost fell trying to get this pic! LOL...But I got it! My grandfather finally allowed me to walk alone and when I got the freedom I almost killed myself!




The water was beautiful but we had to go shopping. I snuck this one while my mom was looking through a window. *snickers*










We hit the beach everyday and since our area was private we had no unwanted guest. (But I did have the feeling that I was being watched)












This was the view from where we sat at dinner! Like it right? I loved it! It was a lovely place called Chateau Mormauh or something! LOL...I love it though. great Escargot (snails for you that dont know) they actually tasted like beef! Every one else gagged!











On our way back to the house I snagged a few more pics but I loved this one because I accidentally took it with the wrong lens on! *Anduele has a framed copy of this one!





I loved it! Camille, Denille's mom, enjoyed herself and she seemed to have laughed more than we did. I think all in all we had a great family vacation. Mom and Camille are already planning our next one. LOL...Our next stop? Tahiti! Can't wait.

Anyway, I'll be back soon to give you updates on what's what in this life of mine. Stay tuned cause hopefully I'll have bead on whoever it is following me.

Until next time, later.

Karah